YOUR CONSTANCY

should i trust you?

are you the one who i should go to in my times of despair? are you the one who i can run to when there's no one else to be there for me? are you the one who'll comfort me when i'm down and helpless?

the problem is, even you can't rescue me from this darkness.

the worse part of it is, i've grown to love you more than i expected. you are not aware of this, i am sure. even if the people around us are not certain with what they are saying. and no one believes until they'd see it.

that's the problem of constancy. and it's a matter of dealing with a relationship that continues to learn and grow. no one notices it until the other is not around. all alone it would be just thinking and wondering how soon is now.

with a simple smile and soft hello, it's already enough to brighten the day. even tantrums can be blown away, knowing it's only one person who could take those away.

but today it's different. and i'm still wishing everything would be just fine. that later you would come and deliver me from this agony. you were there, alright. but you just watched me fall into a pit of sorrow. i died there thinking only of you. it's painstaking.

i need you. and if not now, soon could not wait. i'm falling apart.