EMPATHETIC

every move seems too noticeable
familiar steps make it more obvious
with the slightest hushes and glances
the corner of my eye catches

probable reasons spark up
senseless thoughts running my mind
what i saw, why i think
into a state of insecurity

those eyes that peek through
murmurs that are inaudibly deafening
gestures that become suspicious
and when all together, they make me nervous

guesses formulated on a fast track
the which is asked, the real and the obvious
deceived by lies, and they may be truths
but i don't want to end up as the joke

so i stayed back, pinched myself
focus and pressure, ignore and escape
later it can be laughed off, or the next day
but right now, it's a big deal for me

NO ONE ANYWAY

i wonder why i still hold on
for a long time i've known i should already have
no one's been telling me how stupid i am
but their faces show their pity on me
no one wants to believe me
no one even wants to listen anymore

if i have to move on, i have to let go.

TRUST ME

don't make me trust you
i doubt you'll even exceed me
though with your assurance
i still am not at ease
did not need it, i couldn't say
that past is all that it is
and please, make me forget how i wanted to be near you.

the brim continues to flow
and yet i force myself to stop it
out my hands this water escapes
reminding me of too much for nothing
...efforts for nothing

maybe i'm deaf and blind
ignorance plays the apathetic part for me
my heart beats for a closure
but not wanting that kiss of goodbye

a tear would never roll down this cheek
i realized i have lost this enchantment,
the end in mind to keep going

please hold my hand tight
i do not want to let go...