OH YEAH, UNFAIR

Almost everyone surrounding you gives you the creeps.
Yet, in just one sentence... one word... you shattered.
And unfortunately, I shattered you.

Oh yeah, unfair.

You suddenly blow up.
While everyone else fired six rounds of bullets at you.
My single shot seems to be perfectly aimed.
Because you did take the hit.

Oh yeah, unfair.

Maybe it'd be different if instead of me, someone else.
Maybe it'd be different if it was someone closer to you.
Maybe it'd be different if you took it just like you took everyone else's.

Yeah, in the end, you'll just remind me to just shut up.
Oh yeah, unfair.

WHAT MAKES AND BREAKS ME

1. Family
2. Friends
3. Money

PAGLILINAW

Lilinawin ko lang po:
Gusto ko na pong mamatay, at hindi po yung gusto ko na'ng magpakamatay.
Magkaiba po silang dalawa.
Maraming salamat.

Alam kong mas duwag pakinggan yung una, na tila ba hihintayin ko na lang na may mangyari sa'kin. Kesa aksyunan ko ka'gad ang buhay ko, heto ako't umaasang may may mangyayaring aksidente o sakuna, o kaya nama'y mabibiktima ako ng isang matinding sakit na hanggang ngayo'y wala pa ring lunas.

Oo, duwag nga ako. Takot akong hamakin ang sarili ko. Takot akong masisi. Dahil tumatatak pa rin sa isip ko kung sakaling gagawin ko yun: na sa halip na intindihin nila kung bakit ko ginawa yun, agad-agad silang manghuhusga.

Kaya nga ginawa/gagawin ko yun eh, dahil hindi ko na kinakaya ang mga mapalinlang at mga taksil ninyong panghuhusga. Hanggang sa kamatayan ko ba naman?